On our pilgrimage up to Rochester this past week to take our son to college, we stopped off at Watkins Glen. If you have not been there, you truly need to go. It is a gorge carved out by the waters of Glen Creek whose riverbed was swept away by the glaciers thousands of years ago, leaving the watercourse no choice but to suddenly and dramatically plunge down dozens of feet every now and then on its inexorable way to the lake.
While there, we stayed at a renovated New England farmhouse, deep in this micro-climate's wine country, with a grand view overlooking Seneca Lake. It is one of the Finger Lakes that gives this region its name, for truly the lakes look like some giant hand mindlessly played with the earth one lazy afternoon, dragging fingers along the ground, leaving telltale gouges for the water to fill.
That is not far from the truth. For this was glacier country - last scraped clean 12,000 years ago, when long tendrils of packed ice receded, grinding and dragging and depositing the debris of the earth along the route of their retreat.
How harsh that must have been to the world as it was. Animate and inanimate objects alike were mashed and smashed and moved miles away, their world destroyed or re-arranged at the whim of the Ice.
But perhaps it was a blessing too, for it allowed the earth the rare opportunity to begin again. The past could be forgotten, old ways ground into dust, mistakes overturned, the bed dug fresh, the soil renewed, ready to receive the seeds of new life.
No doubt it is because we are in the month of Elul, the prelude to the High Holidays, that glaciers offer themselves to me as metaphors for renewal and blessing. It is that time of year when we review the past, see where we have been and assess how - and what - we did. The scary thing is, we are told that all our deeds have been recorded in the Book of Life. All of them. I don't think I'm alone in wishing (no doubt futilely) for random moments of divine inattentiveness that might have prevented some deeds from being recorded.
Short of that, desperate plots of surreptitious erasure play upon the mind. Imagine if we could construct mammoth glaciers to run along the pages of our lives, celestial glaciers that obliterate the writings of heaven, flattening and shredding any evidence that might be used against us. (Let's call these glaciers "atonement.")
It is not so far-fetched a vision. After all, like the earth, old parchments and old canvases were scraped, ridding them of ink or paint, clearing space for new stories, new images, changed minds, new life.
These are the palimpsests that form the foundations upon which the changing narratives of our lives are recorded.
Inspired by the glaciers, by the view of this new geological chapter writ upon an age-old world, we can find a perfect metaphor for Elul.
The palimpsest is the bedrock of our lives: our parents, our birthplace, our mother tongue, our native culture, our personality. These are the things we did not make and cannot change, the qualities and attributes upon which all other aspects of our life are built, the “us” that travels with us wherever we go. No matter what happens to us, these can never be erased.
Then there is the rest: our tracings, acts, words, desires and passions. It is these we can be judged on, these which are changeable, these which we can atone for and seek to write again.
That is what the High Holidays are all about - a new birth for all the inhabitants of the world.
There is one catch, though. It seems that even the best of scrapers, even the most complete of erasures, leave a little bit behind. This leftover is called pentimento. It is the shadow of creations past that poke through the new layer of art, through the new narrative writ upon the old. The hidden made visible.
These peekings often reveal the mistakes, the re-thought composition, the work less valued that the creators sought to hide.
But that is how it should be. This past is part of our story too. It reveals the paths we took toward our new selves, our new creation, what needed to be rejected so that today could be born.
Such knowledge enriches our appreciation of the effort and hard-earned wisdom that gave birth to handiwork we have beome.
Glaciers and pentimento. Erasures and permanence. These are the makings of the human spirit. And they both go well with the finest of wine.
L'chaim.
(Photo: cascade of water showering us along the walkway at Watkins Glen)








